wake me up when sept ends.

yes. really. wake me up when september ends.

i guess this month has been one rollercoaster ride. and to think only 9 freakin days has passed.
my words are goin to be in rambles so bare with me please.

wed nyt, afta werk i met up with jun and izwah to go zouking. somehow i had that mambo night feel in me. but upon reachin there and checkin out the place (ie crowd etc) we decided to go momo instead. besides fizhah n her date was on the way there. i guess it was a good decision becos momo was fun. from techno trance to slinky hiphop to comfy reggae and back to house moosik, we danced it all. it was gettin to me at one point of time, i dunno what, but i exited the club and decided to go get some fresh ait outside. that was when the fun started for me. too lazy to explain but yah it was a good spectator moment for me.
i met my old fren whom i havent met for such a long long time. he said i look so grown up. haha. he looked de same tho. then i met t2 haikel n nas. the former's got dreadlocks now. looks ok lah.

i suddenly feel no urge to write.
my god, my moods just seem to go manic extremes these days. its like one moment im happy and upon the thought of something bad, i just get pissed off. no rhyme no reason. just like wat happened at alfresco today after work. i was just talkin2 to i dunno how then suddenly this painful thought came into my mind and suddely revelation sets in and i was like fuck, what is fucking wrong. i had this urge to just walk off but i luckily su asked me if i was takin train home and i just upped and left everyone. no kisses for my girl even. i just felt at that moment if i hadnt left i wud have cried for no apparent reason. macm bodoh kan.

sometimes its so painful. but someone said to me before that i should take control of my life. that i make myself happy or sad. and along those lines i also think that i am my own companion. i am my own bestfren and only i can protect or save myself. so niz, no more depending on anyone ok? try to grow up.

that being said, god help me.